Rants about the nothingness called life…
Thursday, December 24th, 2009Hm… So because of the case that no one reads these, it makes me feel better in more ways than just getting stuff off my chest, but the fact that also, I shall feel I made some point with making no point whatsoever making myself feel mildly accomplished some magical mystical way. I don’t really know where to start, and I honestly don’t think I’ll be at all accurate about anything, because… well… this is a rant, it’s not suppose to be anything that some ugly yelling and screaming about things I don’t like and things I think and feel, which, no one cares about other than me, and it only bugs me, therefore is enough reason to get it out, because, I am just so amazing that I don’t care what other people think about my thoughts anymore since, no one cares anyways. So… I’ll just go with whatever I feel like and will continue under that notion (I guess that’s how to put it).
FIRST! Voting. I don’t really know what the whole deal is with voting, which apparently makes me evil. So… you vote for who you wants to represent you in congress, and president, and governors, and such. But, really you don’t vote for the president, your electors do, who we apparently vote for o.o;;. But! Then they technically vote however they feel like and glance over at the little peoples votes as suggestions, just like how most drivers view the speed limit as a suggestion (and other traffic signals). Now… Why can we vote on the president as a suggestion, but it doesn’t actually count? Hm… I know usually the electoral college votes the way the people do, but like… Are they really needed? Honestly, I don’t know, just asking, but then, asking questions is what makes people evil right? Oops, I asked another. I once saw the news people interview an elector, and he said he honestly doesn’t care how the people vote and votes the way he believes is best (in the words of that one famous guy “Democracy doesn’t work because people are too stupid to know what’s best for them,” which I honestly see as true yet sad and not really… well nice. Then again it was worded much more nicely when he said it… I forget who he was though, I just know I like the quote.). So what if other electors feel this way? Are they able to contact each other? Are they bribed by presidents who run? Like why is it we laugh at the “all people are created equal, some more equal than others” thing when we raise people above us to make decisions and take what we say as a “suggestion.” Also, they did this thing on some talk show thinger where they asked people who they voted for, presented that person, and asked them if it was because of the promises the person was making, but when they presented the promises they gave the promises of the other runner, and the people fought against the person they voted for pretty much. Which also shows that even though I’m evil for not voting because I believe I don’t know enough to vote, that people who are voting, just vote because they feel like it (well the talk show was actually trying to raise awareness of the increase in the black community increased voting rates when Obama ran for president, and that most people voted based off appearance (which also was like a research thing done by psychologist to see if “the one that looked more appealing” would get more votes between Bush and Kerry (Don’t get me on spelling I don’t care x.x))). But then also more stuff, other than that, we vote for congress men and women to represent us and stuff, but then why is it like “Well he’s a senator, his father was a senator, his father’s father…” like down the line? And why are so many of the senators you hear about rich? Like this guy owns one of the biggest orange farms, or this guy own the majority of dairy farms, or something. How in the world is a rich guy gonna know how to represent me, when he isn’t even in my position? The way that our country works is the rich get richer and the poor get poorer unless some miracle thing happens that some guy is either super smart or super stupid and it ends up being great that he makes millions and hits richman road or something. Why does a millionaire need millions? He doesn’t. Money you have, is like the speed limit (lol), it’s recommended you don’t spend what you don’t have ya know? But, people do it anyways, and then we have all that foreclosure stuff, people losing everything, declaring bankruptcy, having bad credit, and all that other stuff. Now, it doesn’t seem like that bad of a thing, cause the banks are still there and all, but then! It happens to so many people at once, people gamble money, and ZOMG! Economic crisis (it’s more complicated than that), but yeah something something like that, and we all blame the banks, and everyone else, but like, why didn’t people be more frugal, banks should have been like “Maybe we should lend money to this guy who wants to buy a mansion while working at the golden arches part time” and people should be like “Well maybe, I can’t afford this and should just save money” (BTW! So many people complain about scams like “buy a new computer at $30 a week for 12 months and get better credit!” and it’s a crappy $50 dollar computer and they complain… how about the saying, “if it’s too good to be true, it probably isn’t true!” There’s no get rich quick scheme and stuff (well maybe there is…), and like, maybe… maybe… if you just google it, you would have noticed something (and googling stuff solves so many problems instantly! SO GOOGLE IT NOOB gah…)) like, yeah, and maybe people building houses should stop and think that there aren’t that many people to buy houses… Other than that, rich people, don’t need all that money, poor people don’t need 50” plasma screens, and if everyone tried staying legit (specially you business owners with your schemes of get rich quick) AND STOPPED GAMBLING (bigger the risk the greater the profit my asmar), maybe, just maybe, we wouldn’t have all these problems. (Hm… another point about the economy, Marx said this would happen lol, that capitalism leads to overproduction and that leads to recession and to get out of recession we either bubble up another industry or something else that seemed violent… I forget… But also he brought up the fact that workers produce too much, that we overpopulate, and some other stuff, I think machines taking our jobs and stuff like that and the rich man stays at the top, and the poor guys get pushed farther down). BUT BACK TO SENators or whatever, congress people, I think that there should be like a “THIS DUDE MUST BE AVERAGE” or something, sure he might not be as well educated, or from a good named family, but dude, he’s your every day average joe. He’s going through the same stuff as everyone else, when recession hits, HE’S ACTUALLY HURT BY IT x.x, does the rich guy get hurt? Maybe a scrape on the shin, but like a guy in the shoes of everyone else, facing problems we’re all facing, wouldn’t he be the best to represent us? Maybe it’s just the news or something and there’s a crap ton of average joes in congress but it just doesn’t sound like it, but like, if all these “well educated folk” who apparently have all the hindsight in the world but no ESP to predict what’s gonna happen, maybe we need some people who are more “I don’t have all the answers, but hell I’ll give it my best shot,” cause we you’re on the verge of losing everything, and the guy who’s trying his best to get you out of the situation will lose everything at the same time as you, doesn’t he seem like he’s trying more? (and maybe, there should be some advance vote or something lol, like when you vote for a president, it’s your average joe, but then! if they win they go through all the economics and whatevers courses for stuff they need to know as president ya know?). And no I’m not a communist x.x, I just took a history course and an economics course which I seem to not recall much about do to winter break… “I was elected to lead, not to read”
SECOND! Gay marriage. I honestly use to think that allowing homosexuals the right to marry was some incredibly horrible thing. Then for some reason I got mistaken for a gay guy multiple times (cause apparently I dress nicely o.O), and was chased in parking lots, confronted by random people o.O, and had very mean things said to be about how horrible of a person I was for being gay, o.O which I was confused about because I though being a gay guy meant that you were a man attracted to other men, apparently, being gay means you’re clean and like to look nice o.o. BUT! That’s not the main thing that changed my view point. I honestly still think that homosexuality is wrong, and that it shouldn’t be promoted (heck I don’t think anything should be promoted, it’s why I don’t play checkers (jk jk lol, probably no one gets that =[ )). But I know a few people who are gay/bi/lesbian, and there some of the nicest people I’ve ever met and talked to, and they don’t judge me for my beliefs, and they do all they can to respect them. Which brings me to the main reason. In Christian beliefs, God created man with free will (or so I was told). God gave man the ability to choose to follow him, or choose not to. And also, isn’t it God’s place to judge people x.x? Maybe people are afraid of Sodom and Gomorrah happening again or something x.X, but then! If you’re Christian, death is freedom isn’t it (don’t go start drinking the funny kool aid)? Also, in the bible, most of the time when homosexuality is brought up as a sin, isn’t sex out of marriage brought up too? Yet, the church doesn’t seem to frown upon this as much. Oh but it’s ok if they’re old (ew…)… Not really… “Well Adam and Eve weren’t married” dude… does the stress on Eve being his wife not mean anything? It wasn’t “And Adam became one with his booty call” or like “And Adam and his girlfriend became one” or “And Adam became one with his friend with benefits” NO! Adam and his wife gosh. Most of the time when there’s a bible verse about homosexuality being a sin, around the same part there’s a part about “no sex out of marriage.” But it’s become more acceptable by the church, as have many things the bible has said is bad. Don’t charge interest. Did you know that the Muslims are the only banks that don’t charge interest, and that a lot of people slap “Christian” labels on themselves in order to rip off people, “Christian” is seen as a “trust me” label a lot of times, so much so that… I honestly trust people more who don’t claim to be anything over someone who claims to be “Christian,” and it’s really weird cause I’m Christian O.O;;. I think it’s mainly because of so many “Christians” chasing people away from God and stuff, or maybe being lied to by so many “Christian Scholars” (Mr. Hovind and Mr. Wyatt oops, I mean Dr. Wait… I don’t think those were real Ph Ds my bad), or meeting “Christians” that use and extort everyone around them, maybe, just maybe, stuff like that gives Christian a negative feeling to it (and maybe visiting a church where the pastor said you should beat your children frequently so they never have the urge to do something bad…). But I feel that people who don’t claim to be “Christian” come off as more honest than those that do. But then again if someone tries cheating you out of your money, well, he’s just a jerk, but when someone who claims to be “Christian” tries it… well you better watch out for those “Christians.” So… who knows, maybe it’s just so many negative things done in the name of Christianity. Also, why is it if you ask the wrong questions at church, you’re labeled as evil? or like… someone trying to reek havoc among the church? When all you were doing was asking a question. I have atheist friends that are more tolerant of my questions and will actually help me do some searching to find out about them. But in the Christian community I throw up a red flag? Also x.X, why is it some questions you’ll never get a straight forward answer from people, or you get an answer far from your question? I guess that’s not just a Christian thing, but I don’t believe in predestination and I can’t really accept it x.x, yet so many people tell me that’s how it is o.o, which honestly, I find this whole thing of existence pointless then. If everything is already predetermined, everything you do, everything that happens and such. Sure, you had the free will, but it was already known, I can take that. But then there’s no point… No point in this middle part called life. Just end it, send the people to hell who would have gone anyways, and the people to heaven that would go to heaven. First off, it would be the same thing. Second off, it would be much nicer than actually letting me know people who no matter what I do would be condemned to hell and actually caring. But yeah, I don’t like getting evil looks, just because I asked something I didn’t understand, and I don’t like being sushed or evil glared at just because I wanted to extend my knowledge in a shared belief, and I’m sorry I feel more comfortable in a room with peers than one on one with people who look at me as prey, in all honesty, why do older people do that? They come at you, take you aside, and act like they’re trying to help you or what not, but the looks on their faces, they’re looking at you like that they could just try owning your mind right then and there. And you all probably know what I’m talking about, that sinister smile they give you with that look in their eyes that your optimistic view of the world, just needs to be crushed (then again, a lot of people my age do that too x.x lol, but I can take them on better =P ).
Next! Occults and other beliefs! So… A common asked question is the “If people don’t hear about Jesus and such, do they go to hell?” And there’s a bunch of answers and all out there, and one I was told was the “God of the thumb” that like some guy knew that there was just too much going on and too much stuff that matched up (like gripping a banana) that there had to be a greater being that he called the God of his thumb or something like that o.O, and that he did his best to honor that god and such and it was his way of explaining God. Which brings me to my other question. If people don’t know about God and Jesus, and they try their best to honor their best interpretation of God, would they still go to hell? Probably a lot of people would say no, but then, what if their belief carried on even when they heard about God and Jesus? Would they now go to hell? Yes? No? Hm… How can you expect someone who’s family has followed their interpretation of God forever, who deeply respect and honor God to change their belief so easily? One thing that struck me is in the bible, some of the references to God highly resemble ways that the Greek and Roman refer to Zeus. Now maybe that’s not an up to date comparison for my question, but they had multiple gods to explain what I take is their view of seeing God, even though it may have been off, and they did there best to honor them. Are they all in heaven or hell? They also have a lot of stories that relate to biblical stories like the great flood and stuff. Like, I know occults are bad and are easier to identify as more modern stuff that just seem odd… I’m not saying all people who believe in a higher being are following the same God, just that… If Christianity is right, but “Christians” or other reasons have chased people away from it, but those people believe and respect a higher authority to the best of their ability, is it fair to say they’re all going to hell, when it’s not their faults? x.x. x.x;; For some reason I feel evil glares staring at me and I haven’t even finished typing all this yet lol… Someone’s going to bring up Muslims with the whole same God different God fight complex thing x.x;;, I’m just bringing up my complex complaints and questions (or maybe very not complex who knows…).
THEN! Living life… lol. How do people know what they want to do? I mean, during childhood and for some time after, you spend your time trying to meet the expectations of your parents and those around you. And you aim for the goals set by your parents and keep it up with no real thought of self. When you think you did well, well those setting the goals and the expectations ask you why you didn’t do better. And then, it no longer is a good thing anymore, the thing that you thought was good. It wasn’t good enough. Then you aim higher. And you keep doing this, and you try your best for years and years till you find out it’s never good enough. Then sometime randomly, it’s good enough. But after years of things not being good enough, you can’t accept that it’s good enough, and that you yourself, will never be good enough. But then you’re just a pessimist. But wasn’t that how it was when you were younger? Like how can you be programmed as not good enough, and then be told that it’s good enough? Living life the way you’re told to, then all of a sudden well, you should have been pulling the strings? All life seems to be is some giant facade of trying to appear better than those around you, or to being saying the right things, or aiming on the path of the figures you wish to accept you. So even when you should be making your own choices, you feel that your choices should go with whether or not the authoritative figures find them within their choices for you. But then how are you really suppose to know what you want to do? And then. It’s actually your fault for going with how you were raised and now you’re a horrible person? x.x and if you speak up for what you want you’re a heartless uncaring person that’s completely selfish? x.x Well what the heck… Life sucks lol, what’s the point in living a life that’s not yours? There is none is there? And then! Taking what a person says the wrong way is your fault, when they’re the one who raised you saying stuff that you interpret!? How is that fair? OH! And if you’re not suicidal or declared mentally ill, you’re a jerk who’s totally selfish? So either A, you try killing yourself, or B, you convince everyone you’re mentally ill to get tested for mental illness (which I think the main way of being declared mentally ill is like from birth or something, or from trying to kill yourself o.O, well that sounds ironic.), or C, you’re honestly just a selfish jerk. Oh, but it gets better, not only is the way you interpret the things said embedded from things actually said to you, but it carries on to other people saying stuff to you! So you’re a horrid person to everyone now x.x? Well life’s just peachy lol…
FINALLY! I don’t know x.x;; honestly there’s a lot more that I was going to rant on and question, but I feel much better having this stuff down. I guess that means I should sleep. And… Probably expect to be in a lot of trouble till I vanish… And if anyone does read this whole thing… I’m honestly impressed.